Channel: JayteKz

Category: Music

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Description: Download/Listen to this song: jaytekz.lnk.to/losingmyself Follow JayteKz: Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/087QK... TikTok: tiktok.com/@iamjaytekz Instagram: instagram.com/jaytekz Facebook: facebook.com/sincerelyjay... Twitter: twitter.com/JayteKz Official "Losing Myself" Lyrics: Yeah I lost who I was Alcohol and the drugs It was killing my brain, it was deep in my blood And it weakened my love I hated myself, I hated my guts I was stuck in the mud I was stuck in the rain My life was a flood I was hiding a grudge I was hiding the truth, I was hiding the pain I was hiding the tears As if I wasn't hurt but this shit was severe Wishing I'd disappear Wishing I wasn't here, wishing I would just die And get buried alive I was wondering why Like why was I born Why wasn't I warned? Why wasn't I warned? No Why wasn't I warned of the troubles ahead? Of all the tears and blood I'd shed I had no idea the devil was just around the corner Waiting to capture me when I least expected it Why wasn't I warned? Why wasn't I warned? Why wasn't I warned of the troubles ahead of me? Why wasn't I told that love would become my worst enemy? The older I get, the more that I'm left with painful memories The colder I get, the more I resent and live regretfully It doesn't make sense to me, no It doesn't make sense to me If there is a god why won't he respond? Is he protecting me? If there is a god then why would he want to put an end to me? If there is a god then all that I ask is that he rescues me Will you rescue me uhh And then I realized That my god is within My god is love My god is energy My god is all things in this world My god doesn't live in the sky But rather lives within my heart And he's always been there I was searching for a love through the drugs and the alcohol and I Lost me through the simple thought if I Numb the pain it would heal this heart of mine But it only made the real me harder to find Insecurities and hatred all combined Is a misery that kept me lost in time I don't even wanna' speak upon it now Cause that imagery still haunts my mind So I had to look deep within myself Cause the problem was I nobody else I was too damn proud to ask for help Everyday I was walking on eggshells I was scared to breakdown or make a crack So I had to fake smiles and fake the laughs But inside I was bound to break in half I was hiding behind a tainted mask Realized that I had to take it off Otherwise I would never shake this off Overtime all the hatred had evolved Borderline my heart almost dissolved But I came to my senses just in time Every breath that we take is so divine And it's up to ourselves to redefine What our purpose will serve between the lines So I took all my pain and agony All the wounds from my past catastrophes Took the blood from the blade that pierced my heart And I painted a precious masterpiece Cause I know that the darkest tragedies Make way for the brightest days ahead And I know that whatever saddens me Only strengthens my weakness in the end What doesn't kill you is only proof of your purpose And it's up to you to find out what your purpose is But I promise you that you have one And I promise you that you will find it if you search deep enough Have faith and just believe Fornever