Channel: Taylor Nicole Dean

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Description: this video is about my abusive ex and why i think people should stay away from him, and also me just venting cause he rly messed me up lol. if ur watching this in 2021 or after: i changed the title bc i dont want his name or anything as a title on my channel anymore. but the situation deeply impacted my c-ptsd and its still very serious and he's still very much a predator to younger women. i'm just moving on thx. ////////// 2019 description: i hope this video is received well. i am obviously mourning over the relationship that i so badly wanted this to be, the person i wanted him to be, and then the stark reality of things. I have been planning to post this video on this day for almost a week now, and decided to symbolically leave all of this in 2019 by getting this out there before the new year. Just from what I've shared on Twitter so far, I already feel so good to be able to actually say what happened, not worry about protecting him, and being honest with myself about everything very publicly. If you've never been in this situation, please try not to judge. I am not ashamed to say I loved him even for long after I left him, and am still struggling to see him for who he really is, but this video and speaking up is helping me SO much. This video is for ME, NOT anyone else. I needed to share my story. I needed to stop being quiet. It was ruining all my chances of growth. I kept getting close to relapse, or going back to him to block out the trauma. talking about this and being heard helps me more than i can explain. even if at some parts i'm a crying whiny mess. this helps me so extremely much and I feel so much lighter now that i've said all this. It's more progress in one day than i've made in months when it comes to moving on from this, so thank you for listening. Again i'm sorry if i do anything wrong in this video, i tried my best, but i know i may get whiny and annoying. it was really hard to revisit the anger he'd express to me in both verbal and physical ways, and i decided to be very raw in this video instead of forcing myself to come off more professional at the cost of diminishing my emotions. /// *Any money made (if any is?? can't imagine this being monetized, lmao) will be donated. I'll post the specific places I donate to when chosen but they will be a women's survivors program and a drug recovery program, and each will get 50%