Channel: Storm Ryan

Category: Film & Animation

Description: Thanks for coming back to visit my channel! I know I've been mia except simple 'relax with me while I do things' videos this month but I'm currently working on an extensive scripted video (oooo never done that b4) on things I believe YOU need to hear as someone who's consumed my content. Growing up with such a public media presence has benefitted my personal growth by showcasing my mistakes to not only the world but ME. It's encouraged me to really sit and think about the content I was producing and question if the effects it had on my young audience was truly positive or negative. In 2013-2015 i was struggling with being trans while living in an abusive household, my only escape was the internet. I spent most of my time locked in my room watching trans guys on youtube, most were simple transition videos but a couple had more in depth discussions about being trans and for the first time I finally felt accepted, like someone understood me and what I was going through. I could not imagine what would have happened if I found someone like myself. what would have happened if I clicked on the videos I produced in 2018? would I have just ended it there because clearly no space was safe enough for me to be myself? with everything happening to me at home and at school, if I had clicked on a video of someone who I looked up to tearing apart kids for not passing or presenting a certain way I would have probably just given up at that point. the online trans community back then quite literally saved my life, and its shitty I did the opposite in return. this isn't my apology, I've posted blurbs like this here n there throughout the past two years as my opinions and approach on things have shifted but only recently have I actually begun to reach out to people I've personally attacked and I'm thankful for their willingness to listen to what I have to say after I apologized. I will hopefully wrap up my official public apology in the next month. Thanks for reading.