Channel: AVERY

Category: Music

Tags: avery faze meaveryofficialavery music videofaze me avery

Description: Listen here: fanlink.to/FazeMe I was in a pretty dark place when I wrote this song. I had spent a long time believing that everyone had to accept me before I had permission to love myself. When people had a problem with the way I looked, I made it my mission to fix my appearance to meet their standards. And when people said I wasn’t good at music, I believed them - I thought everyone must know better than me. I stopped doing what I loved. I stopped living my life & maintaining friendships because I was so afraid of gaining weight that I refused to go places where there was food around. I stopped being goofy & speaking my mind because I was afraid of doing anything that might result in rejection. I couldn’t handle hating myself any more than I already did. And even though I so badly wanted everyone’s acceptance, I also hated everyone, because I thought it was all their fault I didn’t feel worthy enough. One day I felt so low that I was overcome with a fear bigger than my fear of rejection - the fear that I would come and go on this earth without anyone ever knowing the real me. That I would die before I’d ever get to experience how amazing life can be. I was finally tired of being miserable. So I decided to stop hiding - even though I was still afraid. I decided to start doing what I love again, even though I still wasn’t sure I was any good at it. I stopped letting my fear be apart of my decision making. And when I did that - guess what? I started to really like me again. I started believing in me. And that feeling was so satisfying, that I stopped constantly craving other people’s acceptance. I see now, it wasn’t other people’s opinions that were holding me back. What was holding me back is that I thought everyone else’s opinions mattered more than my own. I understand now that I can’t expect everyone to like me - and that’s okay. I promise this time, I won’t let it faze me. Written & Produced By: Avery & Benjamin Epand instagram.com/ben.kideyes Video Directed/Shot By: Overcast instagram.com/overcastaz Lyrics: I wake up in a fantasy land Where everything is great but it’s all in my head I take pills just so I can be skinny Cuz someone once told me that I wasn’t that pretty So I get high all by myself And I have never felt so ugly in my life I feel dizzy, now the rooms spinning And I don’t think I’m getting any closer to winning I wanna close my eyes wake up as someone else Everywhere is lonely when you hate yourself And I don’t wanna know me anymore So take a look at what you made me All you people did was change me You all say you tried to save me All you did was make me hate me This time I won’t let you faze me You told me I’d always need your help I believed in you more than I did in myself I sat back and did what you told me Now I look at myself and I don’t even know me In your eyes I was never enough Now I turn to strangers when I’m looking for love And now I’m thinking maybe that I’m better off lonely Cuz people always leave me so much worse than they found me I’ve become so many different people now Hoping one of them would finally make you proud And I don’t wanna know you anymore So take a look at what you made me All you people did was change me You all say you tried to save me All you did was make me hate me This time I won’t let you faze me I don’t wanna waste anymore time Feeling like my life isn’t mine I’m so sick of these lies And no, I’m not fine So take a look at what you made me All you people did was change me You all say you tried to save me All you did was make me hate me This time I won’t let you faze me This time I won’t let you faze me This time I won’t let you faze me