Channel: The Gabbie Show

Category: Music

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Description: I felt my mental health being compromised so I took a step back to be a person, touch some grass, pet my cats, see my friends, write some music… paint, mostly. I knew coming into this that it would be difficult, but I wasn’t able to handle it the way I thought I was. This series is and always has been about healing, so if it gets to a place where it’s no longer serving that purpose, I’m not going to push myself in a direction that’s hurting more than it’s helping. This series is *NOT* about drama, it’s about my life & processing trauma. Unfortunately, a lot of that does involve people who consistently wrap me up in drama online. Trust me… I hate it, too. This series is simply a documentation of a life not many people experience or see. It was also meant to be a commentary on the constant, targeted harassment and exploitation of women in media. It’s meant to serve as a tool in shedding light on the very trivialized and misunderstood mental disability, ADHD. In starting this series, I was also just starting treatment. As I was editing, I was able to look back at the situations I was describing and recognize how my lack of understanding (and treatment) exacerbated otherwise trivial situations. I began medicating shortly after I finished filming and it changed my life. I spent so much of my life feeling like an alien on earth, not understanding why I thought so differently than other people, wondering why things that felt earth-shattering to me felt insignificant to the rest of the world. If someone had sat me down and explained to me that I don’t process the world the same as most other people because my brain didn’t develop like most other people, I would have spent a lot less time wanting to b*** my fuc**** br@!ns out. This is a topic that is very dear and important to me. Men and women experience ADHD differently. The age at which you recognize and get treatment makes you experience ADHD differently. The type of ADHD (inattentive, hyperactive, combined type) makes you experience ADHD differently. Comorbidities and past trauma make you experience ADHD differently. The way you were raised makes you experience ADHD differently. The level of severity makes you experience ADHD differently. To say someone’s disability doesn’t affect them in a certain way because it doesn’t affect YOU a certain way is incredibly ableist. A lot of people with opinions on my series haven’t watched it, they watched videos talking about me without asking the time to listen to me. It sucks, but it’s life. This series is my art. It’s meant to be consumed in its entirety, not in bits and pieces. I created it so I could stop obsessing, and for all intents and purposes, it worked. I feel myself healing and moving on. I wanted to tell my side and never speak of it again, and I failed at the beginning by engaging online. SURPRISE! I’m impulsive & defensive. I’m also a human. I found myself wanting to explain myself again & wanting to combat every new lie. Then I took a step back into the real world where I’m a pretty happy and chill person. Online, I’m a version of me that I really can’t stand. From here on out, I’m offline entirely. I really hope you enjoy the rest of the series, I put a lot of time and energy into it. It helped me find myself as a person and an artist and pushed me to places I was too scared to go creatively. I’m very excited to share that with you :) 🎵spotify: tinyurl.com/gabbiehanna-spotify 🎨new art, music & podcast channel: youtube.com/channel/UCN59EzXOq0r9CstB_wxu8Iw 👀0F: tinyurl.com/onlybabz 🖌Patr30n: patreon.com/gabbiehanna 📸instagram: instagram.com/gabbiehanna 🐦twitter: twitter.com/GabbieHanna 🎶tiktok: tinyurl.com/gh-tiktok 📖books: gabbiehannabook.com 🤍official website: gabbiehannaofficial.com